ladybugg

When I first started looking at the mirror in disgust I thought how did I let myself get to this point. Of course, life. I use to eat right go the gym but as I was thinking to myself I realized I was missing the bigger picture. It’s not about the number on the scale it’s about being healthy!!! I know, I know it has been said to me many times but I finally get it. With that I have lost 39 pounds and I didn’t even realize that into I put it into my weight tracker. Of course some days when I weigh myself I get frustrated by the scale but I really try not to let that bother me. I really love how much better I feel. I don’t take naps anymore, I rarely feel sleepy and drained. I only drink water, on ocassion I have a little can of diet soda. There is only one thing I can’t give up, my sugar free red bull. I know it’s really bad for my health but I love it and as of right now I don’t see it going away anytime in the future. I know it can cause this and it can cause that but it’s a lot better then me grabbing a bag of chips and a soda as an appetizer!!!

I am really interested in pilates. I did some moves I found off the internet and I can feel it making a difference anybody here do pilates, got any advice?

The road that led me to where I am today has been a very winding road. It first started with me at 215 pounds. I was engaged and happy. What was so tragic at the time turned to motivation to become skinny. I was losing weight to try and get him back. I lost weight for all of the wrong reasons. I went down to a size 6 and weighing only 160. I was not happy. I have learned that losing weight has to be something that YOU want for yourself. It’s about eating healthy, being aware of what you consume, and realizing the effects that it has on your body. At least that is the rational that I have in my head to keep me motivated. Since then I have gained a monsterous amount of weight. I met my husband gained some weight, got married gained some weight, and had a baby and gained weight. I have no energy and I feel disgusted with myself.  I really want to lose this weight and be healthy and happy. This time I hope I can do it…….